Wow...I'm really going 'home' tomorrow.It's been a year and a half since I hugged my family and friends back home.I'm so excited to see them!!!!Spending precious moments with them is something I've been looking forward to for a long time.Long talks,walking on the beach,staying out all night,and just being next to those I care about.Happy happy happy!
But I'm wondering if this is what I really want right now.There's something I'm leaving behind to go back and see my family and friends.I keep telling myself it's just 3 months and that going 'home 'is what I've been wanting for so long.But actually,I'm more nervous to go home than to stay back.My insecurity takes over and I'm overwhelmed by what my family and friends back in Malaysia will think of me,how will I adapt back to the environment back home and how will I go on for 3 months missing precious people in US.For a long time now,I've been able to call this place my home.How many homes can one person have?Where do I really belong?Where do I really want to belong?I guess this is the sad part of leaving.I hope I don't have to sacrifice this happiness I've found here to go back home.
I'm praying to God this will work.Finally,effort from my side....and this time its REAL!Because I think I've found something real to believe in.Is this love??
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relax Sin Yee, it's gonna be ok! just forget what you are leaving in US and enjoy these 3 months =] it/they/he or whatever you are leaving behind will understand!
thanks diogo!will see you in japan!
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